The Circles of Life

1 month before Bear past she was attacked by another dog and lost most of her right ear. It took two men to get the other dog off of Bear and because it was incredibly traumatic those 5 or so minutes felt like a lifetime. I took a LOT of guilt home with me that day and carried it around for quite some time. I felt as though I had failed Bear, a dog that had given me her trust after 14 years of abuse and neglect. My duty was to protect her and here she was injured and terrified after fighting for her life.

It happened at the shelter where I now volunteer. We were there to visit and see the lady that helped us find Bear when she was last abandoned. This dog had pushed through the gate as someone was walking through and she A-lined toward Bear. Those moments to follow were filled with painful moans and fear of the unknown, would she survive this?  She did but looking back I’m almost positive she held on because of the intensity of my own grievance.

Victoria Lise Lays with Bear Senior Rescue Dog

Almost a year has gone by and in that time I worked through the pain arriving at a more peaceful inner place. Along the way as I would share this experience it was often said that this animal should be put down. Overwhelmed by everything I didn’t put much thought into how to help this other animal but certainly I did not feel in any way this life should be jeopardized because of this incident. Surely, there was much hope for the future of this animal with total commitment being key to her rehabilitation. Well, Great Spirit gave me the blessing to continue this journey and hers. She has been brought back to the shelter where I am on the adoption team. I mean this was huge! I didn’t allow myself to think of the million ways our meeting could go, instead promised myself to be fully present while it unfolded as it were meant.

I was overcome by the love I felt approaching her space, she appeared much smaller than I remembered. Her eyes were so soulful and filled with the highest gratitude. I could see myself in the reflection of her golden eyes. She pierced my being, I love her just as I loved Bear-fully with no conditions. Her behavior toward other animals is a response to the despicable teachings of humans but it is not her natural state of being. She exists on the field of purity, of love, of loyalty. On that day nearly a year ago I couldn’t see that her and I weren’t yet through,  we have a lot of work to do, I promised her we’ll do it together. While I was there I couldn’t help but notice a shadow of light dancing around us feeling Bears presence as if she were responsible for our crossing paths.

When life interacts with you, how do you respond?

8 thoughts on “The Circles of Life

  1. Oh my goodness. I can’t answer. This is so heartbreaking and wonderful at the same time. I can’t imagine all the emotions you felt. But I can feel it pretty deeply too. Yay for Bear, and this dog too. And for you.

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  2. This post made me cry. You have an amazing humanity and a beautiful spirit. Thankyou for touching my heart with this post. I send you Angel blessings with much love and a hug. xx

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      1. Hi Victoria – Just to let you know I’ve nominated you for the Liebster Award. Feel free to decline the challenge as it took me quite a while although it was fun to do.. xx

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      2. Hi there Wendy, I apologize for the late response. I am honored you thought of me in regards to an award! Thank you so! Where do I access it or how does it work? I will look into it on the web, it may take me some time to get to as I am preparing for my wedding in a month and it is our busiest season in the business my partner and I own. I hope that is ok and again thank you so so much for even thinking of me and spending your time to do something so thoughtful. I am deeply grateful! Hope you have been lovely X

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      3. Oh wow sounds like you’ve got a lot on your plate but very exciting times for you! I remember how busy it was in the last few weeks before my son got married last year. There is definitely no time limit on this so anytime much later in the year will be fine 😉 I wish you and your fiance many years of happiness together 😘

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